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Aug 13, 2013

goodbye-s






so, nat is off to serve his national service.
(hence the amount of random photos / polaroids we took on two sundays ago to celebrate his entrance to um, manhood)

i'm gonna let the pictures do the talking for now because i'm too lazy to explain anything.

only: go nat--make us proud.

xoxo.

Aug 9, 2013

dear (i.)

photo from here :: typography by me

dear q.q,
go make us proud. you have been such an awesome brother ever since forever.
can't wait to see you without hair on your head (haha).
idiosyncratic,
e

dear chubby bunny,
for future reference, next time you bring that awesome green jacket, i might just steal it. from under your nose.
[and just hang in there for another year to be an old friend hah. 6 years > 1/2 decade = long time]
 facetiously,
e

dear potential serial stalker,
too bad you'll miss the fun. have a smashing time whamming eggs into your forehead.
scintillating,
e

dear elmo-with-a-goldfish,
wakey wakey! pull the hood lowerrr.
upsoemlaosute*,
e

dear milk,
yes, that's still your official name.
indubitably,
e

//

<footnote> there was no such word as upsoemlaosute. but now there is!
i'm defining it as extremely silly, comical, happy, and holding a lime green balloon.
<ftnt 2> i like writing notes.
<ftnt 3> i don't even know what half of those big words mean. 
<ftnt 4> inspired by elise's pieces

Aug 5, 2013

i think i care too much

i think i have a problem.

i care way too much. small things which were meant to be nothing mean the world to me, and i fuss over them like the universe depended upon it. things that people just casually mention, things that literally nobody pays attention to, i see meaning in them. and unfortunately, i think it's directed purposefully at me. and i either 1) curl up into a ball and wither, 2) heatedly defend myself (resulting in me looking real stupid), 3) hold a grudge against that person.

this is a very unfortunate problem, as you can imagine. and sometimes i wind up arguing with someone over something that was simply in my head. why. why why why why.

i'm still thinking of a solution. the only apparent one? care less. but frankly, i don't think that'll work.

this is definitely not a solution, but still. it makes me smile. (:
#despicableme2isprettyawesomeventhoughihavenotwatchedityet


xoxo.

Jul 29, 2013

flit, fly // summer 05



she was in a field. filled with dandelions and dying grass.
beautiful, life and death merging.

fly higher.
the words resounded in her mind as she struggled to differentiate reality and fantasy.
she could feel the familiar, gentle push of the wind.

stop it.
she wanted to stay and rest in this little sanctuary, rest her weary self.

instead, the wind drove her forward relentlessly.
surrendering was probably a better idea.
to
let
herself
fly
higher,
and
high-er,

h-i-g-h-e-r

until it seemed like she never existed.

flit, fly
memories,
gone by

//

<footnote> just some snippets of random scribbles

Jul 23, 2013

growing up // summer 04


very long ago, when we were still young, when we thought the world revolved around us, when we had no cares in this world, i thought that our time together was forever. that nothing would ever pull us away from being the bestest of friends.

then we all had to grow up.

slowly, but surely, we stopped seeing each other every other day. stopped our amazing holidays to other countries together. stopped these, and starting meeting new people, seeing new things, experiencing fresh enjoyments. and, i suppose, that is growing up.

bittersweet memories of how we used to fight, give silent treatment, and then make up again.
of how we used to play like a bunch of hooligans.
of how we used to tell everyone we were siblings.
of how we would exchange secrets, and dream together of the future.

and now, we've gone our separate ways. friends still, just apart for a while. growing up? maybe, but i've yet to get used to it.

sometimes these memories, carefully stowed safely at the back of my mind, slip out and make me long for times long past. and when i breathe in the fresh and cool night air, the memories of long ago, pleasant and soothing, haunt me, evoking a sense of loneliness for that time. and sometimes, i wish we could just escape back in time, and be who we were.

the world kinda gets complicated once you're older, doesn't it? more cares, more responsibilities, more duties to fulfill.

and i just want to freeze that moment, back in time, and remember everything. i've learnt to treasure those memories, every single one.


“Growing apart doesn't change the fact that for a long time we grew side by side; our roots will always be tangled. I'm glad for that.” 
- Ally Condie, Matched -

Jul 21, 2013

unwind // summer 03



i did quite a bit of unwinding this summer. too much, maybe, but i'm afraid there won't be any time for that this coming school year.


1. cola wars.
what can i say? it is too awesome to describe. i brought back so much memories with me, and this was probably the best thing i've ever decided to sign up for. the bju sea <south east asia> team was amazing.

just look at us.


pepsi forevahhh
*photos courtesy of the auntie regina. many thanks*

2. phuket
bummer, it rained almost everyday. but i got to swim, and see that delicious sea, and taste that salty air again. (not to mention: gorge in tidbits + eat like super cheap good quality ice cream + late nights = sore throat)











i like this summer life, but once in a while something in me longs to begin school again. it's crazy, but it happens. not doing much makes me tired and frustrated, not to mention feel useless. i guess i have to step away from the busyness and breathe. inhale a deep breath of that salty sea, and sit back in the shade for a bit. then, i'll find myself longing for work, and when school comes around, i'll treasure it even more.

i'm a pretty weird person. who ever heard of treasuring school and longing for work huh.

//

sink into the deep,

blue, and, cool, and kind.
then drift off to sleep,
let the past unwind.

-song from love never dies, sequel to phantom of the opera-

Jun 24, 2013

fading // summer 02

june is like almost over.
it's depressing because all i did was slack around the house doing nothing but music and reading.
so now, guilt, and the chance to redeem myself in these last days of summer.

july ushers in:

ᴥ chinese o level remaining papers
ᴥ grade 8 piano exam
ᴥ upcoming school year
ᴥ SAT
ᴥ exams, exams, exams
ᴥ other frightful stuff like that

the only thing awesome upcoming, besides Phuket, is the Cola Wars.

which is going to be totally amazing.



<fade, fade, fading away>

Jun 21, 2013

profs and like, cake

so like, we went to the yong siew toh conservatory of music for three days of piano masterclasses which were so awesome and amazing, and totally had me at the edge of my seat.

(except the one time in the afternoon when i was dozing off due to excessive indulging at luncheon.)

when i listened to a piece, it seems just ordinary until the profs start teaching it. then, it really starts to come alive. they weave brilliant stories through the harmonies and chord progressions, which totally astounded me.



with Professor Thomas Hetch

with Professor Albert Tiu


oh, and the very amazing piano teacher who brought us there also did something.

she bought us über-rich chocolate cake from starbucks.

chocolate cake.

chocolate.

cake.

right before the final night recital in this really posh place.

we were like stuffed to the brim with Subway sandwiches. so, we took little lady-like bites and--thank God Noel was there!
he consumed those two superbly rich chocolate cake just like a real man.

i was afraid that we'll go on a sugar high in the posh recital hall.


really hope to go for more of these
(the yst events, i mean. though i frankly loved the addition of the cake).

- - - -

so, on a totally different note.
there's the haze, and i have been moping around in the house.

so far, i've consumed 6 fiction books since last afternoon. i've been deprived of them the past school year. speaking of which, i have been spending the past three weeks of school hols immersed in books and sleep.

bai.


<haze haze haze and more haze>

Jun 16, 2013

today: life

i was reminded how short life is.

on friday evening, we sent a very dear family friend on his last physical journey at mandai cremation centre. he left us to be with the Lord after a year-long struggle against cancer. he and his family have been such a testimony to all of us. trusting, hoping, and putting their faith in the one true God. never ceasing to exhibit that joy and grace that only comes through believing and clinging to God in trials.

i was reminded to treasure those around me.

to stop hating, to start treasuring the things and people in life.
hate is so bitter. it hurts the hater and the hated. learning to stop hate, bitterness, and petty dislikes.

i was reminded to look with expectancy for life eternal.




this world is not my home,
i'm just a-passing through
my treasures are laid up,
somewhere beyond the blue

xoxo.

Jun 5, 2013

dear summer // summer 01

source



dear summer,

please bring some happy surprises, rainbows, sunshine, and lots of blue skies.

xoxo,
elisee

p-s: and some chocolate-chip ice-cream too, please, if it isn't too troublesome.



<because school's out, summer's here, 
and that deserves a post>



May 17, 2013

happy (belated) momma day

dear mom,

happy (belated) mommy's day
on this special day, i just wanna say a big, appreciative THANK YOU.

i know you have to put up with so much of my nonsense.

you have to deal with the little spitfire in me.
you have to bear with me being fussy.
you have to put up with my emotional swings.
you have to tolerate all my unreasonable stuff.

and you amaze me at how much you still love me.
thanks for loving me.

i love you mommy <3




may the Lord who has blessed me with such an awesome mother,
continue to lead and protect you,
and bless you with all good things.

i love you so much.

xoxo,
elis
(your lil' spitfire)

"Her children arise up, and call her blessed"
-proverbs 31:28-