tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11241343352938284042024-03-20T15:56:56.352+08:00a flyleafa raw collection of words from my heartelisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.comBlogger89125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-24492261724141619892018-05-07T00:49:00.004+08:002018-05-07T00:51:25.856+08:00a collection of sounds<div style="text-align: left;">
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">on those long morning drives to nowhere,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">The sound of your heart,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">amid the noise of the giddy crowd & my own frantic pounding one</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">beating for the lost, </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">sick, </span>dying,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">gentle tunes hummed till they bleed with time</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">and almost </span>fading dreams</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Carrying in my arms the broken shards of things I loved and fell apart. The sharp edges have torn my arms and the wounds are a tender shade of scarlet, and </span><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I know that scarlet is a colour fit for a King. I have no right to bear these scars, but I have nowhere else to turn.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I pass the place where old dreams are buried and where the air hangs heavy with ghosts of the past clinging to me in the thick mist–</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and fear no evil, </span></i><i><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">for You are with me.</span></i></h3>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">My heart is shaking as I look for You through the fog, afraid to find Your sorrowful eyes but longing to see You. I am too frail and too weak, and this journey is too long and painful, Lord–this I know all too well.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And blindly, I stumble towards it, heart heavy with tears and with a million words I do not know how to say. The broken shards have begun to shred my bloodied skin again, but this time the pain is heavier and sharper, as if they somehow knew I was trying to let them go. Broken shards of a self-righteous life I cannot let go of; I know that with every tear of my skin I am getting weaker.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">A familiar figure cuts through the thick fog, but I cannot move. I can only sit and wait as silent cries shake my body, desperate to be saved from myself. There are moments you never forget, and as He gazed down upon me, with so much sorrow and beauty and compassion piercing through to my soul, I tasted Love for the first time.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">O! The sweetness of His gaze and warmth of Love! Nothing I had been promised in my old life even came close. It seemed like centuries ago when I had revelled and made my living off the self-absorbed "love" the world served in sickening excess.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And in reckless abandon, He reached out to me, despite the heavy stench of dried blood and flaking mud around me, to take everything, the pain and the tears and the remnants of my former self, even as they tore His beautiful body. Blood flowed richly and freely and a cry of pain and aguish left His lips. I cowered, but He did not draw back until He had taken every sliver of my sin and laid them on the altar beside Himself. The ultimate sacrifice, the holy & the perfect Lamb, to save me from destroying myself.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I really, truly try to love Him in my own twisted human, carnal way, but I cannot do it. I cannot love Him enough to bend my own stubborn, proud heart to His will. I cannot love Him enough to fill my mind with His words. I cannot love Him enough to kill my own sinful habits that chain me to my flesh.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And though my heart cries in bondage, it steadily refuses to budge. The irony never fails to amaze me and fill me with such despair.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> But His Love is too great—so great that He sent His Son down to die on the cross to save my small, pitiful heart bent on destroying myself. Love so great that He turned away from His only begotten Son when my sins were laid on Him. O Lord! Enlarge my heart I pray. I do not deserve Your love, that I know, but neither do You deserve my pale, weak heart that very often beats for something else.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And I come back again to the beginning—disappointment is a harsh term. I try not to think about it so much, but if I am disappointed with how often my wandering heart strays, to think of the disappointment He has in my unfaithfulness. My heart trembles at the grace that has been lavished on me, and marvels at His faithfulness, steady throughout the generations.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And with that I end, a sinner that has been liberated from the snares of sin but who often forgets the costliness of the free gift she has received. Perhaps this is but a pitiful attempt at reminding herself of how undeserving she is of His love and how willing He is to pursue her wandering heart, but isn't this the beauty in the story of redemption? And this weary soul can only say <i><b>hallelujah</b></i>. All glory be given to the One who saves.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><i style="color: #999999;">This post has been perhaps the most painful and important one I've written yet. It's taken me months and months (close to half a year, or more) to finally conclude this and get the words and the story right and I know I'm a week late for Easter Sunday, but I thought I might share this anyways (hurhur). And isn't it only right that I have a very long postscript to be attached to this post? HAHAHA. You can take it as my attempt to apologise and make up for the lack of content on this space (hehe), but really, every word I say is straight from my heart. I've said this one too many times, but thank you, thank you, thank you for being here.</i></span>elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-74958077120117253392017-04-05T00:39:00.000+08:002017-04-05T19:08:21.695+08:00the song of us | here's a piece of my heart (ii)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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It was a quiet Saturday evening. Those kinds of evenings when it seemed you could just sink into the deep silence and silently fall through the cracks to the other dimension, slipping into a million melodies just waiting to be discovered.</div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "helveticaneue" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;">We meet once, twice, many times more after that. It's built on friendly excuses, until you finally tell me that you love the tune I play, the trills and occasional random arpeggios thrown into the score that lilts on. For that moment my heart sings because, me too! Man, how blessed can I get? And I tell you, this time out loud, I have fallen for your warm chords and deep tunes.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "helveticaneue" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;">And thus, the song of you and me began.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "helveticaneue" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;">You slowly help me mend the cracks of silence that had threatened to swallow me. We seal them, but leave enough space for the haunting melodies to filter through. I liked it better that way, I told you. Then I can still discover the undiscovered melodies. You laughingly joke that it's alright, as long as I still loved your tune the most. What a silly thing to say! That is something that will never change.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "helveticaneue" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif;">Whenever you laugh, I want the whole world to see how it colours my world and sets my heart skipping the occasional beat. But I suppose, some things are best loved alone.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: x-small;">(also i just got a TON of cake samples. God is good. love u all muchly)</span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com24tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-88309712858924247702016-12-24T22:37:00.000+08:002017-01-02T15:59:58.621+08:00a crack in the starlit sky<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I caught a glimpse of paradise today.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It was a peculiar feeling, seeing something you’re so familiar with but have never actually seen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">For the first time, gazing out a plane window at 4AM, I saw the stars. Not just the rare one or two bright ones bravely shining through the noisy city lights, but a whole sky full of it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And I remember thinking, <i>Wow,</i></span><i><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> this is one star too many.</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I was, and still am, a city girl. Born and bred with the glaring lights of rush and noise to suffocate my senses. I have never seen the stars I write about so often, felt the cool moss beneath my bare feet, or lay in fields with the evening sun warming my face. I felt an odd sense of guilt when I realised just how glorious the pattern of the heavens was, how I’d been talking all these time about something I never really knew. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">So maybe what I’m trying to say very imperfectly is that writing has taken me places I could have only dreamed about.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">When I write about the mountains and the stars and the songs the wind sings, a piece of me is there. When I’m broken, I engrave the words of my Father into the crevices of my heart. When my soul sings, I pencil in that song to my memory where I can keep it for eternity.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I feel like Christmas eve is an appropriate time for such reflections. Staring up into the sky this evening made me feel so small and pale in comparison, but I know of Someone loved me enough to send His own Son to this earth, with a bright lonely star to watch over His cradle, for the redemption of a girl who cannot love enough on her own.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Only a few more hours to Christmas, so happy (almost) Christmas!! May you be filled with love & joy this season, and not forget the life behind why we remember this beautiful day.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">p.s.: still working on part ii of <i>here's a piece of my heart</i>!! so excited to finish this ♥ so much love for you all.</span></div>
elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-10242868098240505022016-12-22T01:32:00.001+08:002016-12-22T11:18:05.041+08:00here's a piece of my heart | part i.<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">7.15am again, and I am sitting precariously on the rusty chair of this forlorn coffee shop.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">You are sitting across the table and every fibre in my body is straining to keep my eyes on the steam wistfully pooling around the cup's rim. Because I can't swim and your eyes are too deep for me to stay afloat.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I crack a joke and cringe as it falls flat, but you must know that humour is my self defence because you laugh and ask if everything's going on alright.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">And for that moment I almost lose myself. I want tell you everything I know. That you make me feel like the most beautiful person when I'm around you. That the stars shine the brightest in your eyes when you laugh. That π is a perfect name for your dog. That even though I teach formulas for a living, I'll never begin to solve the puzzle of how I fell for the lonely man in the coffee shop.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">But I don't, because you are grinning again and I know my story is a sad one, one that would stain your smile and hang heavily on your heart.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">So I sit there and laugh like I'm fine as we joke over simpler things that matter less and gaze at the town as it slowly wakens through the frosted windows. And for that moment I can pretend that all is well with the world.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">HELLO MY DEAREST PEOPLE. I'm so sorry for dropping off the face of this planet but college has been incredible (but crazy, incredible crazy, crazily incredible, heh) so I haven't been around this space forever. I've missed this but it takes awhile to start my writing engine again. I'm thinking of having a part 2 (!!) so hang around for it alright!! Hope your holidays have been going on beautifully; I know mine has </span><span style="font-size: x-small;">♥ I"VE MISSED THIS SO MUCH AKSAJDSJDKLSJDA it's good to be back (for however long, it's still good.)</span></span></div>
elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com22tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-74297914969644477572016-04-13T22:33:00.001+08:002016-04-13T22:33:24.554+08:00field of dreams<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">the colours leak from the shadows</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and a faint lavender glow is scattered through the field</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i am here--</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">again.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i lick my cracked lips</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and then sit</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">before the silence strangles me,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">it is the time before darkness and light</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">the moon slowly melts into the paled sky</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">the lost dreams are creeping back into night</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">my heart, strange and hollow</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i can feel it--</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">aching,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i want to scream into the horizon</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">with its fading stars</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and tell them--</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">wait.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i have no words left in me</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and no strength left to shout,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">but i am the girl that chased tomorrow!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i saw the wells of light at the end of the worlds</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i cried for all the broken dreams</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and laughed at the ones that bloomed</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i am freckled with sun</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">bathed with tears</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i've seen the sky cry at dusk</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and the ocean spilt by lightning,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">why have i come to this field?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i can't quite--</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">remember.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">there are dead visions buried here</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i know it,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">the air is filled with tears and sleepless nights</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i can taste them on my tongue,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i come to realise</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">as the time crawls by</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">that i am just another shadow passing</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">a ghost of a happier time</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">sent to watch this field of death</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and mourn for my lost--</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">dream,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">i hope you like this; </span><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">i've been thinking a lot about deaths of visions, & </span><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">how God works through them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">continue</span><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"> to keep me in prayer!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">i've been busy with college apps & interviews & internships & all the (ahem) fun stuff hahaha.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">i'll definitely be popping in and posting/reading your fab posts as much as i can! <3</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">so much love xx</span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com42tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-42946171295411903642016-01-13T23:46:00.000+08:002016-01-13T23:46:15.273+08:00fearless love<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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i will tell you the things i am afraid of.</h3>
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i am afraid of the dark when it spirals into oblivion,<br />
of the light that blinds the tender eye,<br />
of second before the storm,<br />
of the song that shreds the heart.<br />
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i am afraid of the bright music i hear when you laugh,<br />
of the sky that colours your brown, curly hair,<br />
of your kind voice that says hello,<br />
of the sea that reflects your smiling eyes.<br />
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i am afraid.<br />
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but, let me tell you what i love.</h3>
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i love the dark that casts wandering shadows on my face,<br />
the light that patterns the dusty floors,<br />
the storm that rages with passion,<br />
the song that sings through the air.<br />
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i love the warmth of your laughter,<br />
the sky that beams lights of gold and orange,<br />
your voice that rolls like music over the hills,<br />
the sea that we splashed in that morn.<br />
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i am afraid, and love.<br />
i love, and am afraid.<br />
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let me show you it's okay to be both.</h3>
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<i>this post is dedicated to you all because one hundred of you beautiful cupcakes decided to follow along. and it's also dedicated to the start of 2016, so it's appropriate :)</i></div>
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<i>thank you thank you thank you my sweet little peas for ONE HUNDRED FOLLOWERS</i></div>
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<i>((you can't see me right now but i'm like dancing all over the place))</i></div>
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<i>i adore you all, and i'm so glad i made this journey with YOU.</i></div>
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<i>i couldn't have asked for anyone better to cheer my days up with incredible comments, and read my posts, and appreciate my writing even when i didn't, and forgave my awful hiatus(es) when i didn't have anything i thought good enough to post. i might not have met you in real life but you, YES, you darling, are incredible.</i></div>
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<i>i am so thankful to God for you!</i></div>
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<i>and, darling, have a smashing 2016.</i></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com57tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-40968177562170485362015-12-26T21:58:00.000+08:002015-12-26T21:58:09.398+08:00ghosts of yesterday<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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i fell in love with his eyes first, those sparkling green orbs that shone like the sea.<br />
then, his hands. rough and brown from the years of war, silent painful stories buried in his veins.<br />
next, his smile. that crooked and crinkly grin that slipped when he forgot his mask.<br />
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oh, the years we had together were the golden days. he brought me wild flowers from our backyard, scattered among the thorns so his hands got rougher as our home grew lovelier. and i loved them. he started school for the villagers in our little home, so we could spend time with the children we could never have. and i loved them, oh so much. he, both of us, worked so hard to make our life perfect, and for a time, it was.<br />
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we spent marvellous years together, but as he grew older, i watched as he slowly slipped into the untold stories of his war years. i would hold him as he woke up, forehead beading with sweat and eyes glowing with fear. i stroked his hand as the fever worsened and ebbed away and came back even stronger. i cried silently as the doctor gave me little hope to cling to, and cradled the head of curly brown.<br />
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and finally, when i was just another ghost from his yesterday, i told him to let go.<br />
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i buried him in our backyard, where he was the happiest gathering flowers to brighten my days. with only the wild flowers and thorns to watch him as he slept in peace for eternity.<br />
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((this is so sad but i guess it reminds me not to take any moment with loved ones for granted))<br />
hope you had a meeeerry christmas! may God's love continue to shine in your lives.</div>
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y'all have all my love <3</div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com34tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-33321813769195445322015-12-15T22:16:00.000+08:002015-12-15T22:16:54.438+08:00oh my soul, look & remember<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">sifting through the dust of yesterday</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">buried so deep it was hard to breathe</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">what do i say when words fail</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and silence crushes my soul</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i will look</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">to the sky, where Your glory lives</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">to the sea, where Your mercy washes</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">to the wind, where Your voice thunders</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">to the Babe, where Your love shines</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i will remember</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">that when my lips fail to speak</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and my body wastes away</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">when the daylight turns to stormy clouds</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">the cold waves fill the void</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i will know</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">You are everlasting</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">perfect</span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">my soul will rest in Your holy name</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and upon my broken pieces</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i will build my altar</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">whyyy, 'ello again. it's been a while, hasn't it? i'm so sorry i've been gone for ages, i have been struggling to write something delicious and beautiful for a while now and the words are just swirling in my head but i can't get them out. shoutout to writers/bloggers who can write things almost all the time 'cause y'all amazing. seriously it takes some serious talent. ;)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">i went on an impromptu trip to visit my uncle out in the country, so maybe that's helped with inspiration heehee. i've missed you all, and i do realise i have A LOT of tags to catch up on (i'm so embarrassed, really ugh). but thank you all for sticking around on this journey. God has been so good to me and i'm just overwhelmed with His love. may you realise that this week as well Ü</span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com25tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-38365948148583381882015-10-29T09:56:00.001+08:002015-10-29T10:15:02.269+08:00christmas? christmas.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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i know this is almost two months too early, but it feels like Christmas today.<br />
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yeah, even though it's like 28ºC and humidity 71% with expected thunderstorms in the afternoon and no snow, it feels like Christmas.<br />
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i'm sitting here in my garden with the fresh smell of sunning clothes and a cup of homemade cold chrysanthemum tea and my brain keeps shouting christmas, christmas, christmas for some queer reason and i feel very, very happy. (honestly, i have no idea how stuff up there works.) even though i know I'll regret this in the afternoon when i have tons of exam studying to catch up on, i just wanted to take the time to appreciate today for the beauty that God placed everywhere.<br />
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i'm pretty sure it's because the awful hazy weather broke yesterday with early morning thunderstorms that cleared the air. i haven't seen the blue sky in <i>ages</i>, and it's absolutely glorious to behold. Christmas lullaby music is blaring sweetly in my earphones (we're on <i>away in a manger </i>now).<br />
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and i'm just so in awe that God <i>knows</i> exactly how to paint with the colours of nature. do you ever get that sometimes? and maybe it feels like Christmas because i'm once again exclaiming how marvellous God is and that's what Christmas is all about.<br />
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<br />elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com33tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-21766714732885165622015-10-15T20:39:00.000+08:002015-10-15T20:39:04.362+08:00where to find yourself (ii.)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">where the horizon spills with pastel magic</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">where the breeze bursts with hope</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">for a new day</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">to be you</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">you'll find yourself in the raging of the storm</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">where the rain dances down the window</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">in scattered patterns only you can see</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and you'll let hate all out</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and take love all back in</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">you'll find yourself where the seas meet the sand</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">where the wind cries <i>glory, glory, glory</i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">you will take a deep breath</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and let the </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">salty aura</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">tangle deep into your soul</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">you're lost now,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but go, find yourself</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">life is too short</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">// part i. <a href="http://a-flyleaf.blogspot.sg/2015/07/how-to-find-home.html" target="_blank">how to find a home</a></span><span style="font-size: x-small;"> //</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">// part ii. where to find yourself</span> //</div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">also, i'm TONS sorry for being MIA for so long. i finished my job attachment last friday, and had some final report thingies to submit and things got a little crazy. had lots of loose ends to tie up hehe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">gonna catch up with all the cool stuff y'all posted over this week <3<3 *HUGS*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">p.s.: IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY TOO WHEEE hehe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">hurrah for year eighteen! i'm so excited to see where the Lord will bring me in this upcoming year.</span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com40tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-28184158874030915832015-09-19T22:37:00.000+08:002015-09-19T22:37:43.469+08:00little things {16-25}<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">the little happy things: <a href="http://a-flyleaf.blogspot.sg/2013/09/the-little-happy-things-1-12.html">i.</a></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">16. Hugs (and more hugs).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">17. Learning new things about people you love.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">18. Wind that leaves you gasping for more.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">19. Sleep.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">20. The color of silence.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">21. Blogs that shout "this.is.me."</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">22. Old friends.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">23. Coffee and whipped cream..</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">24. Comfy clothes you look good in.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">25. Smiling at a random stranger, and having them <i>smile back</i>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's so easy to forget the little things in life that make you <i>live</i>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">making lists are a good way of remembering them; i'd recommend it hehe <span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; font-size: x-small; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">ツ</span></span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com46tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-41495161700730999532015-09-12T21:48:00.000+08:002015-09-15T21:33:36.133+08:00(pssst)<div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it could be anyone, online or in-person, and it takes a little courage on our part, but it could change someone's life and make someone's day a whole lot better. i just suddenly felt really convicted about this issue after hearing in the news about this girl who took her own life when she received a bad score report. and not just this, i've been hearing of all those many, many boys and girls who willingly chose to leave this world because they couldn't accept the way they were made, or had unkind words thrown at them, or thought no one loved or cared for them.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />so yeah...this probably sounds really lame because i'm not the best at rallying people to do things, but won't it be lovely to impact someone for good? i know i struggle with approaching people with nothing more than "hey, i think you're awesome. stay cool, alrights?" but i guess there's always a first time for everything.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">*deep breathe*</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /><br />good grief, i can't even begin to explain how bad i am at this approaching people thing. and i don't know, maybe people will laugh or you'll stumble over words you meant to say (i know i will), and it won't be perfect.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />but imperfection is what makes us human and lovable and <i>real</i>. the pain we feel at 2AM when we wake up with empty hearts, our tears behind the closed doors we shut against others, the joy that comes in the morning when we discover that <b>He</b> is always with us.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />that's what makes us human. and let us start looking more at other human beings and going "i want to make a difference in their lives and i don't care what others are going to think." you know, the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate. just...shake it off <span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18px;">ツ </span><3</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /><br />i'm actually surprised i wrote so much about this and sorry about the mass of words i'm throwing out here heehee. so much love for you all <3</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">you are <i>so</i> loved today <span style="text-align: left;">♥</span></span><br />
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com31tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-78767207597554932492015-08-20T21:50:00.000+08:002015-08-20T21:52:05.618+08:00hush, hush<div dir="ltr">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i'm sitting here, in the brightly-lit lobby. nerves tumbling, palms sweating, hands trembling. waiting for the clock to tell me that it's time. new things are hard to do, new people are hard to meet, new mistakes are hard to forgive.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">the boy sits across the room, reclined on a chair, fingers absentmindedly stroking his guitar. i forget my nerves for a moment as i watch his fluid movements. the guitar is coloured like the earth i'm so familiar with, like the soil and dirt i want to be sitting on, laughing and smiling.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but i am here.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">in this artificially clean and spotless place that is lit too brightly with fluorescent lights, making it hard to gaze into people's souls. my eyes hurt from the light reflecting off the shiny marble floor.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i leave and use the bathroom one, two, three times before i settle again on my chair. the fabric of my skirt is harsh against my thigh and my body is itching to be free again. the clock still has not moved and time has never moved more slowly.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">the lobby empties of the morning crowd and soon, it is just me and the boy with the slender fingers stroking his guitar in a calming, rhythmic way. it's hypnotising, and i see the warm, fresh smell of earth surrounding each stroke as it dies away into the next. my heart beat slows from its excited state and falls into a pulsating pattern to match his movements.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">the boy looks up. after what seems like eternity, our eyes break away and he stands up to leave.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i don't have to look back at the clock to know it's time.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">i started job shadowing a local hospital on monday, and it has been such a great experience so far. this is something i drafted while waiting in the lobby on monday morning. every morning i wake up nervous about me screwing up and looking stupid, but at the same time excited at what i will learn. if you guys could keep me in prayer or in your thoughts i would appreciate it so, so much ♥♥</span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com37tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-26045419669413856682015-08-13T12:39:00.000+08:002015-08-13T15:20:31.292+08:00the 777 challenge<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">so dearest cally from </span><i style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;"><a href="http://wordspassingyouby.blogspot.sg/" target="_blank">words passing you by</a> AND</i><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;"> the awesome olivia from <i><a href="http://summerof1999.blogspot.sg/" target="_blank">the summer of 1999</a></i></span><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;"> did the thing and TAGGED me for this uber awesome challenge i couldn't pass on.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">*hands cally some pretty wildflowers from the mountain because she's a mountain girl*</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">*showers olivia with bagels & tea bags 'cause her /about/ page tells me she loves them*</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">(heehee </span></span>♥)</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">sorry if i missed anyone who tagged me! just let me know and i'll edit the post to give you some well-deserved cool things too<3<3</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">(cally said she "cheated" doing the challenge but i'm definitely doing it </span><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">wayyy</span><span style="line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"> worse meh)</span></span></span></div>
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<li style="line-height: 20px;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">firstly, as much as it pains me to admit this, i do not have any legitimate manuscripts of long stories i wrote *<i>cringes and waits for protests from riot crowds</i>* yeah yeah, i know i love writing and everything but i don't actually have a manuscript (??) the closest i have is a book of quotes and thoughts i write down when i'm inspired.</span></span></li>
<li style="line-height: 20px;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">secondly, because it's a scribble+doodle book, some of the pages are blank. so the closest i could get for a page seven was page eight *<i>cries</i>*</span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">thirdly, i don't even have close to seven lines on that one page sigh. so i'm just </span><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">sharing everything i wrote on that page.</span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="line-height: 18.200000762939453px;">well. that was a full confession of my failings at following a simple challenge (teehee). here is the long awaited line from my manuscript-that-isn't-really-a-manuscript:</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and i cried for all the girls who wouldn't know how beautiful they looked </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">when they woke up with bedheads and scars on their wrists and hearts and pillows damp with tears</span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i really hope you guys enjoyed this simple post! oh and before i forget, here are seven other amazing bloggers i will tag:</span><br />
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<li style="font-style: italic; text-align: center;"><i>laurel </i>from <i><a href="http://www.laurelcrowned.com/" target="_blank">Laurel Crowned</a></i></li>
<li style="font-style: italic; text-align: center;"><i>ashy </i>from <i><a href="http://apieceofmysky.blogspot.sg/" target="_blank">A Piece of My Sky</a></i></li>
<li style="font-style: italic; text-align: center;">arushee from <a href="http://unadornedgifts.blogspot.sg/" target="_blank">Unadorned Gifts</a></li>
<li style="font-style: italic; text-align: center;"><i>jollygirl</i> from <i><a href="http://reflectionsofajollygirl.blogspot.sg/" target="_blank">Reflections of a Jolly Girl</a></i></li>
<li style="font-style: italic; text-align: center;"><i>bekah </i>from <i><a href="http://foundandcherished.blogspot.sg/" target="_blank">Found and Cherished</a></i></li>
<li style="text-align: center;"><i>tane</i> from <i><a href="http://tangerinetane.blogspot.sg/" target="_blank">Fifth Out of Ten</a></i></li>
<li style="text-align: center;"><i>rachel</i> from <i><a href="http://www.rachelnicoleblog.com/" target="_blank">Silent Shadows</a></i></li>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com33tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-43627439657139023842015-08-08T23:31:00.001+08:002015-08-08T23:56:57.514+08:00you are worth every second<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i will never tell you to stop because you deserve this dance beneath the stars, with the moon casting light on your slender figure and the waves lapping at your feet.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i will never tell you to wait because you are called to run further than i can ever imagine, to the well where the sun rests in gleaming pools and the water cascades into the rocky light.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and when you come back for me after five, ten, fifteen years, i'll be here waiting.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">we will sit down for tea and you will ask me how i have been.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and i will say that i have never been better.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and you will do that smile again, and we will laugh and remember the old days and pretend that we could go back in time. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but we can't, and we won't, and all we have now are memories of things long dead and buried.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">we will do this, just you and me, and we will be happy.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">then you will take off again into the unknown. too soon, too fast for me to say i loved, love, and will always love</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>you.</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">i hope you all enjoyed reading this as much as i enjoyed writing it!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">have a beautiful weekend, everyone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">sending so much love from over here *hugs* ♥</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /><i>to credit the bloggers for the idea to this piece will take exceptionally long because everyone i've been reading has been so inspiring of late </i></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: x-small;">♥</span><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">♥ </span><i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">this is the result of reading all of y'all blogs and going "ugh, my heart" every.single.time. but i want to give an special mention to <a href="http://downbythewillows.blogspot.sg/2015/08/to-three-little-pigs-who-live-over-hill.html" target="_blank">ADDY</a> for her three little pigs post because that has been the main inspiration for this. </span></i><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: x-small;">♥</span><i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;"> (okay this is really ramble-y now, i'll stop *grins*).</span></i></div>
elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com34tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-16324437162417096782015-08-04T17:35:00.000+08:002015-08-04T17:35:53.304+08:00b • r • e • a • t • h • e<div style="text-align: right;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">eat some ice cream.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">look up and count the clouds.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">close your eyes against the sun.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">see the black swimming against your eyelids before--</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's funny how quiet things are in your mind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">the world, there's too much.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">noise.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's too harsh and bright. not now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">ouch. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">your legs have gone numb.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">how long have you been here?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">if you stopped moving long enough</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">will the world stop?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(yes, breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">don't stop; that's good.)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">the word breathe sounds funny here.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it sounds light and passing and trivial.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it doesn't sound like it will last.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">not forever, anyways.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">how long will yours last?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">long enough to make more people smile, you hope.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">breathe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">you feel the sun warming the grass.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's time to wake up.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">to be honest, i don't even know what i just wrote.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">just some random thoughts and feelings floating around in me that i had to write down.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-small;">i just had to pen it down even if it doesn't just quite make sense, you know that feel? <span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">ツ</span></span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com27tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-32573174878340280502015-07-27T20:38:00.001+08:002015-07-27T22:30:57.253+08:00it's a long wait for those you love<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">he smells of home</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and of sea spray and salt,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and of wood and pain and empty rum bottles</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but mostly</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">just home</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">he said he would be back</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">"before you forget me"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">he teased</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(i could never forget a part of me)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">he jumped out and swam back</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">to hug me again</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">so i could breathe him in</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and remember</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it has been a while</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">a long, long while</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">since i waved goodbye from the docks</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but that's okay</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i'm still waiting for my home to return</span><br />
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<i>above pictures were taken by le moi in Lake District, this gorgeous place in UK.</i><br />
<i>(isn't it beautiful though??)</i><br />
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<i>p.s.: also, i have been reading lots of pirate and captain hook-like stories lately, hence the source of inspiration for this post *grins* thanks for reading, you lovely people ♥♥</i></div>
elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com22tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-58258514576092282182015-07-06T06:13:00.000+08:002015-07-06T06:13:47.778+08:00how to find a home<div class="" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">we sat with our faces turned towards the dying sun that evening. there was a queer, unsettled feeling of beauty that made the air around us light with expectation. i guess we all felt the same; we were just kids, fresh out of the college, not at all ready to face the world.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">tomorrow, we would all leave to different parts of the world. life, cruel but beautiful life, had finally called us apart after four years of college life. </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">so we sat there, our fingers intertwined and our breaths fogging in the cool evening.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> "you figure we'll ever see each other again?"</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">of course dylan had to ask such a question. the dear idiot, he was gonna make me tear up. and i had promised liam not to get rachel started before tomorrow's airport farewell.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i rolled my eyes, more to prevent tears from building up than from annoyance.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> "sure we will. best friends will always find each other, won't they?"</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(oh rachel, that wasn't helping with the general teary mood. crying was infectious. i wasn't going to be the one to start the chain reaction.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i nodded, not trusting my voice to hold steady for long if i spoke. as if he could hear my thoughts, liam gently squeezed my hand. i squeezed back harder, trying to channel my emotions to the shoulder that i hoped could bear the burden better.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">we only found the desire to leave long after the sun had sunk behind the rounded tops of the hills. even then, we had to drag our feet, wearily. the battle had not even begun, but weary travellers we were.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but i was a weary traveller with a home. i had found my home among these three messed-up, imperfect friends who loved me for the imperfect girl i was. we were leaving each other, sure. but what is friendship without trials? what is love without hardships?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and somehow, now the distance between our destinations was smaller, because our hearts had found a home together.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">{sorry i haven't posted in a bit! internet connection hasn't been always steady with us travelling all over the place. also, i didn't realised how much i missed writing until i started it again </span>♥ <span style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">love you all so much xxx.}</span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com32tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-26961232876154249372015-06-20T22:27:00.002+08:002015-06-20T22:27:58.961+08:00(a series of unconnected thoughts)<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">that burned like hunger</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">so <i>alive</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">an emptiness</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">drying and deadly</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">extinguishing life</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">a <i>bitter</i> pang</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">just a kitten among flowers to make your day brighter xx.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">"You are so used to your features, you don’t know how beautiful you look to a stranger."</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">just three unconnected thoughts weighing on my mind this afternoon. i'm in u.k. now, it's so cold (it's supposedly summer, but i live in a superbly warm country, so this is like winter to me), but the place is gorgeous. God has been so good, and i'm just amazed at how everything in life works out. i promise to write more about it, and pictures coming soon :)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">(ALSO, biggg shoutout to rosie at <i><a href="http://www.selfknownblog.com/" target="_blank">self known</a></i>, for making this little blog look so good. you're awesome, girl.) </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">i love you all! have a beautiful week ♥</span></div>
elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com30tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-47091797118408473912015-06-12T12:40:00.001+08:002015-06-12T12:40:50.715+08:00don't forget<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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"she walked with darkness</div>
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dripping off her shoulders</div>
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i've seen ghosts</div>
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brighter than her soul"</div>
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don't you dare look me in the eye<br />
and tell me<br />
you're not good enough<br />
we both know that<br />
is not true<br />
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there's a difference<br />
oh, honey, there is,<br />
between loving others<br />
and loving yourself<br />
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you can love and love<br />
other humans<br />
you see the brightness<br />
in their eyes when they<br />
smile<br />
the quiet movements<br />
that speak volumes<br />
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but darling,<br />
you have forgotten<br />
how to love yourself<br />
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you have forgotten how to<br />
see the brightness in your eyes<br />
when you laugh<br />
you have stopped loving<br />
the soft smile<br />
gracing your lips<br />
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oh, you are not perfect<br />
none of us are<br />
but there's Someone who loves<br />
you deeper<br />
than you could ever love yourself<br />
He makes your flaws<br />
your weaknesses<br />
perfect<br />
<i>in His strength</i><br />
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don't you dare forget that<br />
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i just got back from church camp, and it was such a great and refreshing time spent with lovely people. i'm working on getting my writing/blogging schedule up again, which is a tad challenging because my family and i are leaving overseas for a month tomorrow x_x but it's gonna be exciting!</div>
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also, i'm just curious: do you guys like it/check back if i reply your comments? i'm not sure if y'all actually notice haha. you all leave the sweetest and loveliest comments, by the way ♥♥<br />
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stay beautiful xxx.</div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com23tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-57832048763012869242015-05-05T21:08:00.000+08:002015-05-05T21:08:52.756+08:00just a quiiiick update<div style="text-align: center;">
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<i>the brave do not live forever,</i></div>
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<i>but the cautious do not live at all</i></div>
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<i>// the princess diaries //</i></div>
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i know i haven't been posting in a long while, but i've been (and will be) having end-of-the-year(ish) exams over these few weeks. i've just finished my calculus exam this morning, and boy, am i glad its over.</div>
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just a few more papers and summer will be upon us <3</div>
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just wanted to let you people know; i'll be back posting again when all the craziness is over! stay awesome, guys.</div>
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much love,</div>
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elisabeth</div>
elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com24tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-64864372547862351122015-04-17T12:13:00.000+08:002015-04-17T12:13:30.132+08:00the start of something new<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">but she found something akin to pain in them, the first sign of human-ness she had seen in him. strangely, that gave her hope. <i>hope for what?</i> you may ask. she didn't know either. all she knew was his eyes were very terrible, and very beautiful.</span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">so, in such a manner, they continued along the road, with her sneaking looks at his unchanging face, and him stonily glaring ahead. silence never bothered her, so she was quite comfortable with the arrangement. from time to time, she would talk, he wouldn't respond, and she would continue the one-sided conversation. once, when she was discussing with, well, herself on something particularly silly, just to pass time, she thought she caught an amused flicker of eyes towards her direction.</span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">she didn't know why, but she felt immensely happy.</span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">i'm slowly beating writer's block guys!</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">thanks tons for the suggestions y'all gave in the previous post;</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">they were so very helpful </span><span style="font-size: x-small;">♥</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">also, i just have to add that this fiction was inspired by:</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">the lovely <i>Adelaide Thompson</i> over at <a href="http://downbythewillows.blogspot.sg/" style="font-weight: bold;" target="_blank">Down by the Willows</a>.</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">her writing is stunning. go on, check her out right now!</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">P.S.: if you have instagram, go on and follow me @elisab.ethf because i've been on there more recently!</span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 16px;">xxx</span></div>
elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com20tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-45426039426578196382015-04-09T14:27:00.001+08:002015-04-09T14:32:31.214+08:00/bitterness/<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">it all starts in the little things. the things that no one sees or cares about. but you do. you remember them. and you keep them in the little sealed drawer at the back of your heart, and you leave it, thinking it won't matter. but then it gets bigger, and the little drawer starts to grow. little things suddenly become big, and you wonder why nobody but you notices, why nobody listens or wants to listen to you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">and then your anger builds. slowly at first, but then faster and faster and faster. it spins out of control, and you feel mistreated in every circumstance. you ponder and mull on it at night. your hands rip pieces of paper into shreds. you glare and punch the bedpost, until you just wind up crying on the floor. and everything seems to lose its meaning. even the bluest sky seems sad. colours don't hold as much meaning as before. love is meaningless. pain is fresh and sharp.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">the scary thing is, you don't know you're hurtling </span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">towards bitterness, like a ship being hurtled by the waves into the jagged rocks. it spins out of control, leaving you breathless, with a stubborn, bitter heart.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; text-align: right;">found this in my old posts; reposting it because i'm needing this reminder.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; text-align: right;">and also because i'm suffering from an acute writer's block right now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; text-align: right;">it's like the worst thing ever to want to write something but being unable to write anything. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; text-align: right;">ugh, anyone have any tips for overcoming writer's block?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; text-align: right;">maybe more chocolate? (ha)</span></div>
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elisabethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14210262360947084465noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1124134335293828404.post-51169351759938836902015-03-17T10:33:00.006+08:002015-03-18T09:03:39.516+08:00five reasons i am happy today<div style="text-align: left;">
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<i>happiness is something we all want, but we don't get enough of.</i></div>
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<i>here's a collection of five things that make me happy today. and that usually make me happy most days. because i want to make you smile, and be happy today, when you think about these things.</i></div>
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{one} <span style="color: #e69138;"><span style="font-size: large;">i'm alive</span>.</span></div>
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+ <i>reminder</i>: never ever take this for granted. waking up every morning is a gift, cliche as it might be.</div>
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+ don't just be another living creature; we have too many people "just existing" in this world. LIVE your life, in the truest sense of the word.</div>
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+ <b>treasure the moments that make you live</b>, and make them happen.</div>
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{two} <span style="color: #990000; font-size: large;">i have people i love.</span></div>
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+ Loving people is something wondrous. I honestly don't think life would be as fun, as exciting, as painful, as crazy without love.</div>
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+ Love is a splash of colour into life.</div>
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+ Funny how you begin thinking you only have space for two people. But as you go along in life, you begin to discover you have more and more space for more and more people.</div>
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{three} <span style="color: #bf9000; font-size: large;">kittens in teacups.</span></div>
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{four} <span style="color: #3d85c6; font-size: large;">i have internet access to google for kittens in teacups.</span></div>
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<span style="text-align: justify;">+ okay. this makes me (just </span><strike style="text-align: justify;">a little</strike><span style="text-align: justify;"> very) happy.</span></div>
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{five}<span style="color: #a64d79;"> <span style="font-size: large;">i am a child of God.</span></span></div>
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+ this makes happy everyday, even though some days i have to purposefully <i>remind </i>myself that this is a reason to be happy. nothing else matters if i wasn't His child. this, this is the reason why my life is fulfilling and meaningful.</div>
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i hope this makes you remember why you smiled last week, or yesterday, or even a few seconds ago.</div>
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it's easy to forget the reasons for smiles, but i think those are the most important.</div>
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xxx</div>
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