a raw collection of words from my heart

29.7.13

flit, fly // summer 05



she was in a field. filled with dandelions and dying grass.
beautiful, life and death merging.

fly higher.
the words resounded in her mind as she struggled to differentiate reality and fantasy.
she could feel the familiar, gentle push of the wind.

stop it.
she wanted to stay and rest in this little sanctuary, rest her weary self.

instead, the wind drove her forward relentlessly.
surrendering was probably a better idea.
to
let
herself
fly
higher,
and
high-er,

h-i-g-h-e-r

until it seemed like she never existed.

flit, fly
memories,
gone by

//

<footnote> just some snippets of random scribbles

23.7.13

growing up // summer 04


very long ago, when we were still young, when we thought the world revolved around us, when we had no cares in this world, i thought that our time together was forever. that nothing would ever pull us away from being the bestest of friends.

then we all had to grow up.

slowly, but surely, we stopped seeing each other every other day. stopped our amazing holidays to other countries together. stopped these, and starting meeting new people, seeing new things, experiencing fresh enjoyments. and, i suppose, that is growing up.

bittersweet memories of how we used to fight, give silent treatment, and then make up again.
of how we used to play like a bunch of hooligans.
of how we used to tell everyone we were siblings.
of how we would exchange secrets, and dream together of the future.

and now, we've gone our separate ways. friends still, just apart for a while. growing up? maybe, but i've yet to get used to it.

sometimes these memories, carefully stowed safely at the back of my mind, slip out and make me long for times long past. and when i breathe in the fresh and cool night air, the memories of long ago, pleasant and soothing, haunt me, evoking a sense of loneliness for that time. and sometimes, i wish we could just escape back in time, and be who we were.

the world kinda gets complicated once you're older, doesn't it? more cares, more responsibilities, more duties to fulfill.

and i just want to freeze that moment, back in time, and remember everything. i've learnt to treasure those memories, every single one.


“Growing apart doesn't change the fact that for a long time we grew side by side; our roots will always be tangled. I'm glad for that.” 
- Ally Condie, Matched -

21.7.13

unwind // summer 03



i did quite a bit of unwinding this summer. too much, maybe, but i'm afraid there won't be any time for that this coming school year.


1. cola wars.
what can i say? it is too awesome to describe. i brought back so much memories with me, and this was probably the best thing i've ever decided to sign up for. the bju sea <south east asia> team was amazing.

just look at us.


pepsi forevahhh
*photos courtesy of the auntie regina. many thanks*

2. phuket
bummer, it rained almost everyday. but i got to swim, and see that delicious sea, and taste that salty air again. (not to mention: gorge in tidbits + eat like super cheap good quality ice cream + late nights = sore throat)











i like this summer life, but once in a while something in me longs to begin school again. it's crazy, but it happens. not doing much makes me tired and frustrated, not to mention feel useless. i guess i have to step away from the busyness and breathe. inhale a deep breath of that salty sea, and sit back in the shade for a bit. then, i'll find myself longing for work, and when school comes around, i'll treasure it even more.

i'm a pretty weird person. who ever heard of treasuring school and longing for work huh.

//

sink into the deep,

blue, and, cool, and kind.
then drift off to sleep,
let the past unwind.

-song from love never dies, sequel to phantom of the opera-