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Aug 26, 2013

the progression of bitterness



it all starts in the little things. the things that no one sees or cares. but you do. and you remember them, keeping them in the little sealed drawer at the back of your heart. but then it gets bigger. little things suddenly become big, and you wonder why nobody but you notices. and you feel that nobody listens or wants to listen to you.

and then your anger builds. slowly at first, but then faster and faster and faster. it spins out of control, and you feel mistreated in every circumstance. you ponder and mull on it at night. your hands rip pieces of paper into shreds. you glare and punch the bedpost, until you just wind up crying on the floor. and everything seems to lose its meaning. even the bluest sky seems sad. colors don't hold as much meaning as before. and then you're accelerating towards bitterness. it spins out of control, leaving you breathless, with a stubborn, bitter heart.

and no one can heal it but Jesus.

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this is me, recently.
just a reminder for myself to let go, and let God.

5 comments

  1. this is perfectly written, and that's exactly what happens when you let things bother you and you don't trust Jesus to take care of your life. you end up blowing it and giving up... but He doesn't give up on you.

    i love your blog and i don't know why it isn't more popular. you pour your heart out into it, and that's something a lot of people cannot do
    keep blogging. ^-^

    lizabeth xx

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    1. aw, girl! that's the sweetest thing ever :') thanks, dear <3

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  2. the sad thing is, this is so true.
    i've had it myself, and you will get through it. just lean on Him, and He'll make everything better! talk to only the people you really trust (if there are any, for me there were not), that should be comforting!

    xo,
    rn
    www.rachelnicoleblog.com

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    1. thanks for the encouragement, girl. ♥♥

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  3. wowow this is super convicting. very good, and very true, and it's so freeing when we let Jesus in the midst of our mess. xo

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