a raw collection of words from my heart

24.12.16

a crack in the starlit sky

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I caught a glimpse of paradise today.

It was a peculiar feeling, seeing something you’re so familiar with but have never actually seen.

For the first time, gazing out a plane window at 4AM, I saw the stars. Not just the rare one or two bright ones bravely shining through the noisy city lights, but a whole sky full of it.

And I remember thinking, Wow, this is one star too many.


I was, and still am, a city girl. Born and bred with the glaring lights of rush and noise to suffocate my senses. I have never seen the stars I write about so often, felt the cool moss beneath my bare feet, or lay in fields with the evening sun warming my face. I felt an odd sense of guilt when I realised just how glorious the pattern of the heavens was, how I’d been talking all these time about something I never really knew. 

So maybe what I’m trying to say very imperfectly is that writing has taken me places I could have only dreamed about.

When I write about the mountains and the stars and the songs the wind sings, a piece of me is there. When I’m broken, I engrave the words of my Father into the crevices of my heart. When my soul sings, I pencil in that song to my memory where I can keep it for eternity.

I feel like Christmas eve is an appropriate time for such reflections. Staring up into the sky this evening made me feel so small and pale in comparison, but I know of Someone loved me enough to send His own Son to this earth, with a bright lonely star to watch over His cradle, for the redemption of a girl who cannot love enough on her own.



The stars were never one too many or one too few.


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Only a few more hours to Christmas, so happy (almost) Christmas!! May you be filled with love & joy this season, and not forget the life behind why we remember this beautiful day.

p.s.: still working on part ii of here's a piece of my heart!! so excited to finish this ♥ so much love for you all.

10 comments

  1. Ohh Elizabeth this is beautiful. Your blog is seriously so lovely. *hugs* I'd love it if you could perhaps check out mine,For All Who Wander. Thanks s'much, and have a wonderful Christmas! <33

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  2. who cannot love enough on her own.
    oh wait it's me. you're honest, and you're brave, and this stings. because i'm a small town girl, with a ceiling full of stars, and i haven't got a neck-ache in a long time. thank you. xx

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  3. i'm laughing because i know. writing about things i've only imagined.
    oh goodness.
    and God is gracious and so gentle and it has me grinning like a fool. looked up at the stars tonight, and recognized them like they've been there forever. Immanuel.
    sweet little baby born in a stable. how on earth.

    He is good. merry Christmas, sweet girl. x

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  4. Wow, Elizabeth, this is beautiful. And it's so wonderful the places that writing can take you :-)
    Merry Christmas!!

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  5. this made me feel so small and so loved in the best way imaginable. u r a star in the sky way out in the country where they're brighter than anyone knew possible ok. don't forget.

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  6. It makes me happy when you post. Your words are beautiful. <3 Merry Christmas (yesterday) Lizzy! :D

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  7. this is all so lovely, but those last two paragraphs especially - hit me right in the heart. love the bit about "engraving the words of my Father..." and "the redemption of a girl who cannot love enough on her own." wooww. beautiful.

    andsowewillbethehopeful.blogspot.com

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  8. I cannot express enough how much I love your writing. <3

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  9. your words are life giving.

    like amen to this whole post because i have no words to express this inexpressible joy and peace and happiness in my heart from reading this.

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  10. SERIOUSLY. The way you write just makes me so happy. You have a talent.

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