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26.12.15

ghosts of yesterday

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i fell in love with his eyes first, those sparkling green orbs that shone like the sea.
then, his hands. rough and brown from the years of war, silent painful stories buried in his veins.
next, his smile. that crooked and crinkly grin that slipped when he forgot his mask.

oh, the years we had together were the golden days. he brought me wild flowers from our backyard, scattered among the thorns so his hands got rougher as our home grew lovelier. and i loved them. he started school for the villagers in our little home, so we could spend time with the children we could never have. and i loved them, oh so much. he, both of us, worked so hard to make our life perfect, and for a time, it was.

we spent marvellous years together, but as he grew older, i watched as he slowly slipped into the untold stories of his war years. i would hold him as he woke up, forehead beading with sweat and eyes glowing with fear. i stroked his hand as the fever worsened and ebbed away and came back even stronger. i cried silently as the doctor gave me little hope to cling to, and cradled the head of curly brown.

and finally, when i was just another ghost from his yesterday, i told him to let go.

i buried him in our backyard, where he was the happiest gathering flowers to brighten my days. with only the wild flowers and thorns to watch him as he slept in peace for eternity.


((this is so sad but i guess it reminds me not to take any moment with loved ones for granted))
hope you had a meeeerry christmas! may God's love continue to shine in your lives.
y'all have all my love <3

xx

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  1. *sobs in your arms* that girl will probably be me. ow o ow owo wowow owwwwwwww. <3

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    1. oh oh oh man *HUGS* you are such a perfect little wild flower, i love you <3<3

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  2. this is really sad,but lovely.

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    1. it made me cry on the inside too. thank you! <3

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  3. *cries* that was so beautiful, liz. i mean, it's so haunting, yet it's, i don't know, it's beautiful in the way that it made me think of life and how fragile every day is. honestly, that's so...indescribable. <3

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    1. AWH. autumn <3<3 thanks, you sweet darling human. yes, life is so fragile and fleeting. we need to remember to never take it for granted xx

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  4. teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaarrrssssssssssssssss
    this is just heart-wrenchingly beautiful. ow. :'( ♥
    your writing is so lovely gahhh

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    1. oleeeeeeviiaa <3
      just returning the favour when you broke my heart with your other post muahaha. thanks, darling xx

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  5. That's a very sad story but it makes a good point! Thanks for sharing it with us and a merry Christmas (late) to you as well!

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    1. thank you lydia!! hope you had an amazing Christmas and a great new year ahead <3 xx

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  6. Why would you do this to my feels? I'm kidding (kind of), but oh my. I could try to explain why your writing is so lovely, Lis, but I'm afraid lovely is the only word I have for today. Other than speechless. <3

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    1. jooooooooooooh <3
      i'm speechless too because your comment just blew me away. so much love for you xx

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  7. AHHHHHH! OMGoodness. That was sad yet so heartbreaking-ly beautiful. my heart is overflowing, my friend. OVERFLOWING.
    I have never read anything like that before, let alone attempted to write something that amazing. I honesty can't even describe it it's so good. Beautiful seems too cheap a word to use on such a piece. Ineffable. Please never stop writing! Your words always leave me speechless! <3

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    1. EVEVEVEVEVE.
      i'm floored by your lovely comment tHANK YOU you lil sweet pea <3 my heart is bursting to because of this. showers and buckets of love on ya hehe <3 xx

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  8. It is a rare work of literary art that stirs the emotion as this does. I would describe it as a tour de force, except that would belittle your future capabilities along this vein. Truly brilliant!

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    1. cRIES thank you thank you (!!)
      tour de force WHAT DOES THAT MEAN oh great and literate one ((heading off to google it now bye)) you're too kind /jumps around/

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  9. i screamed. so hard. <3<3 you are a shooting star. i'm glad i get to see you fall, baby girl.

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    1. adDY that expression is perfect i would say the same for you <3
      thank you, you're an absolute dream. xx

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  10. ow ow ow, my heart. this is so beautiful, but it makes my heart ache.

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    1. /sobs alongside you, my heart is broke too/
      thank you, bekah <3<3 xx

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    1. eeeesh, it's so sad i nearly cried writing it (hehe) <3
      thank you, sweet cindy xx

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  12. oh, this was so beautiful, liz. so many emotions and feels ♥♥ thank you for sharing and writing like an angel.

    XXX -nameless writing

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    1. hugs you and never lets you go ((unless bribed with pizza))
      ily xx

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  14. This is wonderfully stirring and moving, dear Elisabeth. <3 You've really captured the magic of love and the torture of death in one beautiful story.
    Wishing you all the best this holiday season and all year round. Oh, and you have my love, too. ;)
    ~ Sanjana
    peridotcove.blogspot.com

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    1. NAW you're too kind sanjana <3 thank you so much ((you're a deer hehe)) xx

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  15. This is so wonderfully beautiful. Your writing goes along so well with those beauuutiful photos <3

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    1. aruuuusheee, thanks bub <3 you're an absolute dream cries ily xx

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  16. oUCH.

    MY
    HEART.

    "then, his hands. rough and brown from the years of war, silent painful stories buried in his veins." um i'm just gonna marry this sentance thx

    love,
    abbiee

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    1. hAHAHAH oh same, same you darling girl <3
      xx

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