a raw collection of words from my heart

9.4.15

/bitterness/



it all starts in the little things. the things that no one sees or cares about. but you do. you remember them. and you keep them in the little sealed drawer at the back of your heart, and you leave it, thinking it won't matter. but then it gets bigger, and the little drawer starts to grow. little things suddenly become big, and you wonder why nobody but you notices, why nobody listens or wants to listen to you.

and then your anger builds. slowly at first, but then faster and faster and faster. it spins out of control, and you feel mistreated in every circumstance. you ponder and mull on it at night. your hands rip pieces of paper into shreds. you glare and punch the bedpost, until you just wind up crying on the floor. and everything seems to lose its meaning. even the bluest sky seems sad. colours don't hold as much meaning as before. love is meaningless. pain is fresh and sharp.

the scary thing is, you don't know you're hurtling towards bitterness, like a ship being hurtled by the waves into the jagged rocks. it spins out of control, leaving you breathless, with a stubborn, bitter heart.

and no one can heal it but Jesus.
just a reminder for myself to let go, and let God.



found this in my old posts; reposting it because i'm needing this reminder.

and also because i'm suffering from an acute writer's block right now.
it's like the worst thing ever to want to write something but being unable to write anything. 
ugh, anyone have any tips for overcoming writer's block?
maybe more chocolate? (ha)

19 comments

  1. Love is meaningless. Pain is fresh and sharp.

    Those words echo in all of my broken years, and I suppose I really needed to hear this. ♥ For writer's block, I suggest a good dose of sad music and a scroll down Pinterest.

    AND THEN WRITE YOUR HEART OUT because you're brilliant and we need your words.

    xoxo

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    1. oh my goodness, THANK YOU <3<3 you're such a dear. xxx.

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  2. what wonderful writing. it explains some things.

    as for writers block, sit and think of what in the past has inspired you to write or think. like in the previous comment, scroll through pinterest or tumblr. sometimes reading is not the best option (for me at least) but if i see a picture of something i have a passion for, it sparks some interest in me and i can keep writing. xx

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    1. thank you for the suggestions! i love tumblr but haven't been on recently, so i'm gonna head back it :) xxx.

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  3. "it's like the worst thing ever to want to write something but being unable to write anything." - that's basically half my life :) I generally read other writing and look up prompts to help me be able to write.

    And this is BEAUTIFUL writing. love it <3

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    1. haha, you are so sweet. thank you! xxx.

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  4. Beautiful beautiful words elisabeth <3

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  5. Just, wonderful, ah, I love it! That gif is pure perfection, but the writing is just flawless.

    As for the writers block, trust me, I've gone through it several times. Just write, look around, and take a break. Sometimes we all need a breather to get some inspiration. Hope I helped!

    ~Noor
    www.alittlebitofsunshineblog.com

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    1. aw, stop it! you're making me blush :')
      thanks for the suggestions! ♥

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    1. thanks for the lovely comments :') ♥

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  7. This is amazing ♥ love your blog, so glad I found it today!

    hugs

    ~Maiya~

    macmastergirls@yahoo.com

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  8. This is amazing ♥ love your blog, so glad I found it today!

    hugs

    ~Maiya~

    macmastergirls@yahoo.com

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  9. That's beautifully written, I'm glad you re-posted it.

    You've got a new design! So cool. #mustexplore

    xx

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    1. oh my, i don't know how i missed this comment! thanks sarah, dear <3<3

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  10. some days i just look through the posts i bookmarked.

    and they are so precious.

    and exactly what i need.

    amen, amen, amen.

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    1. aw, cally. i'm SO glad this blessed you today. your comments never fail to make my day.
      thanks, darling <3<3

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