the colours leak from the shadows
and a faint lavender glow is scattered through the field
i am here--
again.
i lick my cracked lips
and then sit
before the silence strangles me,
it is the time before darkness and light
the moon slowly melts into the paled sky
the lost dreams are creeping back into night
my heart, strange and hollow
i can feel it--
aching,
i want to scream into the horizon
with its fading stars
and tell them--
wait.
i have no words left in me
and no strength left to shout,
i saw the wells of light at the end of the worlds
i cried for all the broken dreams
and laughed at the ones that bloomed
i am freckled with sun
bathed with tears
i've seen the sky cry at dusk
and the ocean spilt by lightning,
i can't quite--
remember.
there are dead visions buried here
i know it,
the air is filled with tears and sleepless nights
i can taste them on my tongue,
i come to realise
as the time crawls by
that i am just another shadow passing
a ghost of a happier time
sent to watch this field of death
and mourn for my lost--
dream,
//
i hope you like this; i've been thinking a lot about deaths of visions, & how God works through them.
continue to keep me in prayer!
i've been busy with college apps & interviews & internships & all the (ahem) fun stuff hahaha.
i'll definitely be popping in and posting/reading your fab posts as much as i can! <3
so much love xx
but i am the girl who chased tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteI don't know why I love that sentence so much. It's such an optimistic declaration and yet in context it's crying in... I don't want to say defiance, but it's begging to contradict the pain fighting it. I don't even know if that makes sense haha. Very pretty, anyways!!
yes! i understand what you're saying because that was how i wanted it to come across <3
Deletethanks, dear nina! xx
Beautifully haunting. <3
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DeleteWha....this is just amazing!<3
ReplyDeletewaaaaah, thanks babe! glad you liked it <3
Deletethis is so pretty
ReplyDeleteaw, you're too kind emily dear *hugs* xx
DeleteMY HEART FELL ON THE GROUND AND IT'S KIND OF CRYING AND KIND OF NEEDS A HUG AND IT THOUGHT THIS WAS TOO LOVELY SO *scream* babe you have it down. <3
ReplyDeletep.s. glad you're back and writing fab posts. i hope college and those interviews and things aren't too stressful and you have time to breathe. xx prayers sent. God is so loving wowie and he has great things in store. can't even believe it. screaming for like three days.
you fabulous human being *cries in corner because i don't deserve this comment*
DeleteHe is absolutely wowie and your prayers are so so so appreciated xx
((don't scream too long; you'll loose your beautiful voice *hands you some soothing tea* ;-D))
this is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteprayers for you, my friend! xx, rn
raaaachel! thanks darling <3
Deleteyou're an absolute dear xx
THIS. asDFGHJKEL. my heart is wrenched and torn and then split into shattered pieces scattered across this field.
ReplyDeleteso so much beauty here. <3
(i'm sure you'll do great in the interviews;) all the best!!)
WAZHOO thanks you sweet thing <3
Deleteily xx
a ghost. AWLEFIHALWEIFHLAIWEHFLIAWEHF
ReplyDeleteyou have made me die one million times over. xx love ya.
don't die on me addahyy <3
DeleteHAHAHAHA you're the bomb ilyyy xx
the one word that came to my mind when i read this was TRUTH. beautiful, haunting truth. because how much can i relate to that girl you described! YOU have an AMAZING talent with words, and reading this must've rendered me speechless. <33
ReplyDelete(also, keeping you in prayers. God is the BEST and He has the best plan ever for your life <3)
i wANT TO GIVE U A HUG NOW <3<3<3 *virtual hug!!!1!!11!*
Deletei appreciate your prayers so, incredibly much you beautiful soul xx
Definitely so stirring. xx Your words are so poignant and refreshing, and I am truly honored to be a reader.
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and i am so honoured to have you along this journey, dear sanjana <3 thank you for the sweetest-est words!!! xx
Deletei feel like my heart just got dropped into the stampeding herd of wildebeests in the lion king. ya feel me? BUT BEAUTY ALSO. you have such a way with words :3 <3
ReplyDeleteuM like why is that such a perfect expression????/?///???
Deleteyou are the freaking bEST aksjajks ily <3<3 xx
oh my gosh. that was honestly like gorgeous much, your writing is so beautiful and poignant.
ReplyDeletethis is my first time checking out your blog, but i'll definitely be giving it a follow and returning another time. also did you take those photos, they are STUNNING ASDFGHJKL
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EY HELLO!!
Deleteit's so lovely to have new people pop in <3 thanks for stopping by & giving those sweet comments; i'll definitely check out your blog! xx
Something so calming about this. I love this so much. You're such a lovely person
ReplyDeletethank you, dear vanessa!! <3
Deletei'm sUPER glad you liked this piece it means a ton to me xx
WHOa. Reading this felt like sobbing and sobbing for hours and hours until finally you're just laying there staring at the wall and you're empty and you're nothing and YOU MADE THAT INTO A POEM AND IMPALED MY HEART WITH IT HOW.
ReplyDeleteare you even human
<3
praying for you dear,
abbiee
dUDE this i'm crying <3
Deleteyou're the sweetest little pea eVER this comment made me smile so much AND SORRY THAT YOUR HEART IS IMPALED I HOPE ITZ OKIE :))))
your prayers mean the world xx
Ahh the feels. Amazing writing! <3
ReplyDeleteEEEK thank you babe!! xx
DeleteI haven't been on blogger in so long and it was so great to read the posts that I've missed. This is beautiful as always :) <3
ReplyDeleteha ha ha i relate. i've been gone for too long too; time to catch up on posts ;-)
Deleteyou're the best arushee <3 thank uuuuu xx
I love everything about this post. It makes me feel calm and relaxed :) this is the first time I've read through your blog and I'm hoping to read some more!
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aksdjlsajdklsad thank you darling!!!
Deletei hope you enjoy your further reads <3
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Just saying helllo! I enjoy your blog so much and I hope to see something new soon! It's seems like it's been a while! Hope you are doing well!
ReplyDeletehEY!! yes it's been an awwwwfull long while :'(
Deletei've been travelling & having conferences & camps, so life has been crazy. hoping to be back in a bit! thanks for dropping me this dear comment xx
Liz, this is absolutely lovely! You really hit home. <3 <3
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golden halcyon
thank you, sweet grace!!! i'm so glad you enjoyed this xx
DeleteBreathtaking words. But then again, you're just full of those kind of words, aren't you?
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oh, it's people like you that i get the inspiration from <3 so much love xx
Deletemy heart bleeds for this poem. GAHH. You're so talented and "before the silence strangles me" is just ugh. THE FEELS. Seriously this was amazing and i'm so happy to have found your blog you beautiful soul <3 Good luck with college apps, I'm sure you'll do amazingly well, and it will be over before you know it!
ReplyDeleteSo much love,
Anne xx // www.aportraitofyouth.co.uk
what beautiful photos. How dreamy.
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